Once more, with feeling

So, I was kind of a failure last time around. I mean, I completed it, but didn't really make much difference in my weight or appearance. My fitness level was obviously improved but my goal of losing weight and inches was a disaster. I just finished my first week for the second time around and I am fully committed. I WILL see progress this time. I won't weigh in again till the end of this month, tho - the past month of utter debauchery makes me afraid of the scale. Promise to reveal where I am after the first new month.

The Light at the End of the Tunnel

Well, I have just about two weeks left! It's pretty crazy that I actually made it this far. On Saturday morning when I did Ab Ripper X I completed the full 25 reps of every single exercise, and the full 40 reps of the Mason Twist at the end. I cried. Literal tears came down when I realized that I had done it. The first time I did this session, I could barely do 10 or so of most of the exercises, and I couldn't even lift my legs during the Mason Twist. If nothing else, this was a major accomplishment for me. I may still be eating like a porker, but my endurance and strength have absolutely improved! Tonight, the back session with supa hot Timmy. Rowr. I can't believe I only get that particular DVD twice during these whole three months!! That guy should be one of the main stars.

Phase 3, Week 2 - DONE

Whew! I love love love love looooooooooooove the new workout that is in the mix - Back and Biceps. It's super fun, because I love using weights, but also I am madly in love with Timmy. Sorry, Daniel - this guy is crazy gorgeous. Anyway, I really enjoyed adding a new one and mixing up the order a bit. This phase is way different in that it's 5 weeks and the lineup is different every other week. I like it. I even had to write out a calendar to keep myself straight so I know which workouts to do and when. It's going well! Not with the food so much (ugh) but I am really pushing myself on the workouts and it feels great!

Phase 3 Has Begun

Well, I took my pics and measurements and started to get them ready to upload and... I see no diff. I am just so not photogenic. I KNOW my arms and abs are way more sculpted than they were but it doesn't really come across in the pics. My measurements are pretty much the same. My chest went down about an inch, and my arms went UP half an inch each, but I am getting so much definition in them that I love it.

Mostly I just can't stop eating! UGH! Oh, well. My main goal was just proving to myself I could do this. Now I am so close to being done and I WILL do it. When I first started, my one and only problem area as far as the schedule is coming up this weekend - I am going to Vegas! It really didn't turn out to be a problem. I am just going to have Saturday as my day off and do the Saturday workout on Friday. Problem solved. We will see just how bad I am in Vegas, tho...

Week 7 - Day 3

Well, I am on my way to finishing my 7th week and I am getting kind of discouraged. I am REALLY having a bad time with the eating part. This time of year is always bad for me. A year ago last week I was at my lowest weight, which is about 15 pounds lower than I am now. Then I just lost it and went a little nuts for a few months. I ended the year in bad shape and have been on a yo-yo so far this year. I really thought doing P90X would get me back on track but it really doesn't seem to be working. I will be super amazingly good during the week and then the weekends just blow me out of the water. This past holiday weekend I was particularly awful. So, I am still plugging away but my hopes are diminishing that I will see any actual progress next week at the end of month 2.

Tonight was my third shot at the chest session. I still hate it. I am totally worthless at pushups. I don't see to be getting any better. *sigh* I won't give up tho!

Week 5 - Day 3

The chest/arms workout sucks. I hate this workout. HATE HATE HATE. Whew ok, now that I got that out, I will explain. First of all, if this was the first P90X workout I tried, I would have turned it off 10 minutes in and never tried another one. Tony is obnoxious, annoying, creepy - it's bad. He keeps going up with his face in the camera, all crazy eyed, barely explains or demonstrates anything, and is just generally everything I hate about workout videos. If that weren't bad enough, the exercises themselves are awful. Most of them are variations on push ups, which I can barely do anyway, but now you want me to do a push up and CLAP in between? Um, ok. I almost broke my wrists trying that. I was literally whining and on the verge of tears during this session. I felt like such a failure.

I do NOT look forward to next Monday. :o(

Week 5 - Day 2

Well, I took my pics and measurements yesterday... and the pics are ALLLL weird. Somehow, Brandon was like, tilting the camera or something and my head is all enormous and the perspective is bizarre and off. So strange!! I decided I would rather retake them next weekend than try to get them to work as is for comparison's sake.

Here are the measurements, tho!

• Waist - 31 (down 1.5)
• Hips - 38.5 (same)
• Right bicep - 11.5 (down 1)
• Left bicep - 11.75 (down .75)
• Right thigh - 21 (same)
• Left thigh - 21.5 (same)
• Bust - 39.5 (down .5)

So, there's definite progress but not nearly as much as I would like. The eating just needs to be way more under control. That's the bottom line. I feel great about the exercise but I know I need to really buckle down on the weekends. I have no excuses, just a horrible lack of will power! I had hoped that all the hard work I do exercising would make me not want to be bad with the food, but it doesn't seem to have curbed my desire for the dirty at all. Something's gotta give!

Phase 1: DONE!

I can't believe a whole month has already gone by! It seems like just yesterday I was starting. My last day was a bit tainted by a creepy little cold that has snuck up on me, so I wasn't really at 100% for my final day of Phase 1. Brandon was shocked I even worked out at all, but I persevered. Hopefully today's rest day will get me back to full "bring it" status by the start of Phase 2.

I will weigh in and do my measurements/pics tomorrow morning. Here's hoping for some visible progress! I feel good, so I guess that's important, but I want some good numbers and pics, too.

Week 4 - Day 5

All of my rest days have been busy days, so I had not been doing the X Stretch dvd, but I finally got to do it last night! I looooooooved it. It was so enjoyable and delicious. Doing a full hour of deep, intense stretching is probably the closest thing to getting a massage in the world. I was able to do it upstairs, which pleased Brandon, and it was really relaxing and refreshing. Two thumbs way up on the X Stretch! Any time I have a free Friday from now on I will definitely do it.

This morning I got up early and did Cardio X because I am going out tonight after work. I have really grown to enjoy this one. The amount of sweat I generate is AMAZING, and I feel so incredibly good afterwards. As with the legs and back workout, I feel empowered because I can do everything in the dvd and do it well, so I feel like I am getting the most out of the workout.

Tomorrow is the last day of week 4!! I will be done with the first month! I will take pics and measurements Saturday morning but probably won't be able to post till Sunday because I have a super packed day. Here's hoping for some good numbers!

Week 4 - Day 1

This week is the recovery week so things are a bit different. Yoga today, which I thought would be good first thing in the morning but was actually a bit rough. I was very stiff for a lot of the poses. At least I got to see Daniel again! Hehe! After this session I decided I need a little help so I bought a yoga block to use going forward. I think it will help.

I also weighed myself and was down! WOOHOO! 159.6, for a grand total of 4.2 lbs so far. Having neen ridiculously horrible the past two weekends, I am VERY happy with that. This weekend I am trying to be very good, so I have high hopes for my first phase results.

Special shout out goes to Julie - she's heading on vacation tomorrow and plans to bring her dvds with her and keep it up with P90X while she's in Canada. Good luck, Julie!!

Week 3 donnnnnnnnnnnnnne!

I did it!! Time for rest week. It really seems like it went by lightning fast. Yes there were days I didn't wanna do it, yes there were times when I felt like I was a giant loser because I couldn't do things as well as I wanted, yes I got beat down - but it feels SO incredibly good to finish another week. This week was a bit rough with that messed up calf and the extreme fatigue, but I pushed through and made it to the end. Tonight's Kenpo was almost euphoric - by the end I was on such a high! Hopefully I am able to keep up my enthusiasm next week. I will be doing the Stretch X workout for the first time and I look very forward to it. Also, measurements and weight! EEKS! I hope to have a good weigh in tomorrow/Saturday, too. I have been an angel this week. Today especially, I sat there watching 4 other people eat giant, incredible looking burgers and fries at Island's while I munched on a half a Greek salad with dressing on the side. That was rough, but I was very glad I stayed strong. I BROUGHT IT!! ;o)

Week 3 - Day 4

Not much to report for the beginning of week 3. As suspected my weight was the same, but I am ok with that. I soldier on. The fact that I didn't GAIN after the horrible weekend is good enough for me. I had another not so great weekend (well, it was a GREAT weekend but I ate/drank wayyyyyyyy too much), but I really have no excuses for the upcoming one so let's hope I am able to control myself.

Finally got to do yoga again last night! After the mishap with the dvd last week I was looking forward to doing the full routine (and seeing Daniel again, of course). Ugh. I was a mess. Aside from being overly tired (we went to a concert Monday night and didn't get to bed till 2am) my body just didn't want to cooperate at all! My right calf was still really sore from a freaky, intense cramp Saturday morning, and I was just shaky and weird overall. Both of my hips were really unstable and didn't feel strong at all. So, I had to go back to my yoga days and remember what my teacher always said: work with the body you brought with you today. Don't try to force things and don't get discouraged if you can't do the same things you did last week. It's so true! I put all of my balance issues out of my mind and ended up having breakthroughs in two other areas. The crane is a difficult position and is something I have struggled with forever, but I kind of locked into it last night and stayed up longer than I ever have. That was very exciting. Then, at the very end we do a straight up hamstring stretch, just leaning forward over our outstretched legs from a seated position and touching our feet. I was able to lay my body almost completely flat and interlace my fingers over the bottom of my foot. I have NEVER done that before in my life. The whole session got me so loose and stretched that my body just melted into it! So, even though those things may not seem all that impressive, they really made the 90 minutes worthwhile! Added bonus: my calf finally doesn't hurt after 4 days of pain. Thanks, yoga!!

Tonight it's my fave, legs and back, along with nobody's fave - ab ripper. I must say I AM getting better at it every time. It's rough but it feels really good afterwards. Here's hoping I am not so wobbly today! I really need to make an effort to go to bed earlier.

Week 2: DONE!!

Woo! Done with week 2! What a rush. I now really know I can do this 100%. Last night was the legs and back along with Ab Ripper X. I enjoyed the former again but really pushed myself a bit too hard with the latter. After getting so pumped up with the first part of the workout I got all aggro and didn't want to be a wimp on the abs, so I forced myself to do more than I probably should have. I ended up kind of overheating myself and spent the rest of the evening with a horrible headache. Live and learn, I guess. I won't stop pushing it but I will definitely dial back a bit when I hit the wall.

Then, this morning I had to get up at 4:45 and do Kenpo because I have plans right after work and probably won't be home till fairly late. I wasn't sure I could do it because I am not a morning person by any stretch of the imagination, but I did! It wasn't perfect - there was some slow going and I was a bit wobbly at first because I was still kind of out of it. However, by the end I was super hyper and feeling GREAT. I am totally wide awake right now, and if I crash it won't be till later. The one thing I didn't think of though was how freaking hungry I would be. It makes sense because I hadn't eaten in 12 hours, so I had my usual afternoon snack (this week it's grapes) this morning. Since I will be eating dinner earlier tonight I think I will be ok without my snack, but if I need one I have an apple or more grapes.

I don't have super high hopes for my weight tomorrow. I was worse than I should have been this past weekend and I completely own that. I was 90% good during the week, but I know I was casual at times (damn you Brian and your El Toro Bravo chips!!). Now that I am back on the exercise train, I am hoping I will get back into the super strict eating, even on the weekends. This weekend will be a good test: out with the girls Friday night, bbq Saturday and possibly dinner with friends Sunday. Can I control myself?? We shall see.

Week 2 - Day 4

Didn't get a chance to update last night because I was on the go go go and then totally forgot to do it when I finally got home for the evening. This was yoga night and despite the interminable salutation business at the beginning I was looking very forward to it. I was doing really well - full on upward dogs every single time (no cobras), stretched my legs SO high every time, really pushed myself on those damn half moons. Then, when we finally finished all that nonsense and were moving on to the balance poses, the dvd DIED. Just got completely stuck at the 40 minutes left mark, right before dancer's pose. I thought maybe it was the dvd player, so I switched to the other one. No joy. Went upstairs, hoping it would work there - froze in the same spot. B asked if there was something on the dvd so I flipped it over, and there was a huge jacked up spot on it, where the dvd was basically coming apart!! Boooooo! So, I sadly had to quit there and just rode the exercise bike instead for a while. I will get a new copy of that dvd from Julie for next week, but I am so bummed I had to cut it short, especially because I only get to see Daniel twice a week and that was one of his sessions! Ugh. Hopefully tonight is better. It was my fave workout so I imagine it will be a good night, even with the Ab Ripper.

Week 2 - Day 3

Shoulders and arms again, along with Ab Ripper X. I tried the bands for some of the moves and even used B's 15 pounders for some! W00t! I already feel stronger. I did the full version this time including the bonus round and reall enjoyed it. LOVED those side push-up thingees. Those will definitely be one for me to push myself on every time. Also, Daniel was back. Oh, Daniel. I think Julie and I definitely need to go down to the Sunday workout sometime just so I can stalk him. ;o)

I definitely felt some improvement in the Ab Ripper. Part of that is due to the fact that my period is over (sorry to be gross) so I am not so sore and crampy, and part of it is because I was just more energized today. This time I am not nearly as sweaty, but that may just be because the weather much cooler. I think I will wait till tomorrow for hair washing! Yippee! Hehe...

Week 2 - Day 2

Nice sweaty Cardio X to get the blood pumpin and work out the nasty consequences of yesterday's super dirty burger party. Once again I left the shoes off for the whole beginning - I just can't do yoga with shoes. My feet are wide and weird and it's just too painful to endure. Still hate jumping jacks, but I did get that new sports bra and it helps tremendously. Not much else to say on this one! It's a good, hard, short workout and I had enough energy to empty and reload the dishwasher and clean the kitchen afterwards. Now I just need to resist eating all the leftovers up in here today...

Shower time!

Week 2 - Day 1

First of all, despite having a pretty rough week food-wise (holiday weekend, bbq at work, my time of the month) I am down 2.4 pounds. WOOHOO! Told you I would be down. Aside from the debauchery of the burgers I will be consuming today, this week should be MUCH tighter, so I hope for even more results.

Today it was back to Core Synergistics, so I don't have too much to say. It was a bit easier this time at first but then I tweaked my left hip a little on the skater move because I tried to lift my leg this time. Bad idea!! I just thrust it up there with reckless abandon and felt a funky pinch. So, that hampered me a bit for the rest of the workout. I still am not a fan of all the pushups. Does anyone have any tips on how to get better at them?? I really don't think it's about my arm strength as much as these freaking boulders on my upper torso region. Whatevs - someday I will be doing them with confidence and ease! (Just gotta keep telling myself that! Ha!)

Day 6: Kenpo X DONE

DONE WITH WEEK ONE!!! Woohoo!! I am so excited that I did it. I think I can definitely handle this. The coming weeks will be a bit more difficult, what with things going on during the week that will make it harder to fit in the daily workouts, but I know I can do it.

The Kenpo was a bit rough because my legs were quite sore from last night. I liked starting with stretching but again hated doing the yoga moves with shoes on. It's unnatural! I do love doing the pigeon, tho, so you take the good with the bad.

Although my overall opinion of this workout is positive, I was extremely confused during all of the punching combos. I mentioned before how I don't like the non-mirroring, and whereas in other workouts it is just annoying, this time it was very frustrating. I kept hitting myself with my own arms, flapping around like an idiot, and just generally feeling lost. It was the complete opposite of how I felt last night - totally incompetent and useless. Every time I thought I had it I would lose it again and feel really stupid. I know that's my own problem but I think it will keep me from loving this workout.

I DID very much enjoy the kicks and blocks. The side kicks are the most fun and the three way combo again brought me much joy! I felt really strong and confident doing all the blocks... until we got to the star and I felt like an oaf again. I will succeed at them someday!!

On a side note, I ordered a newer, stronger sports bra and it arrived today. I tried it on and did jumping jacks and it was heavenly. Hopefully it will help out a lot come Saturday.

Week one DOOOOOOOOOOOOONE!! I totally brought it. :o)

Day 5: Legs & Back, Ab Ripper X DONE

My favorite so far!! I loved this one. I was so pumped the whole time and really felt like I could do every exercise well. The rapid fire pace really suits me, too. My legs are pretty jelly-tastic, which is a sign of a great workout for me. This one included pull-ups so I finally got to use the "bands + tape roll over the door" technique which I also loved. Seriously, there wasn't anything I didn't like about this one. When we started the dead drop or whatever it's called, I was like, "Yea RIGHT - balancing and dipping down low? Not for me..." but I did them SO well! Shocked the hell out of me. The three-way lunge/kick was sooooo much fun. I could do those for days. I just adore kicking for some reason. (Hopefully there's lots of kicking in Ken-Po tomorrow!) The sneaky lunge and calf raises were insane but I busted my ass and BROUGHT IT.

I look forward to next Wednesday so I can do this one again! Super sweaty, hair needs washing, and I feel so freaking energized right now. Damn I love this rush. This is how a workout should make me feel.

Oh, yea. And Ab Ripper X. I did better than I did last time but was still dying the whole time. I forced myself to do at least 15 of each and instead of giving up after that I would just pause for a couple seconds and squeeze out at least 3 more. So, so rough, but I know it will be worth it at the end of all this.

Day 4: Yoga X DONE

I was looking very forward to doing this one because I haven't taken a yoga class in a few months and I miss it a lot. This session was just intense enough for me but I can see how it would be difficult for someone who has never done yoga before. It wasn't super rough (no hair washing needed - yippee!!) but there were definitely challenging moments. The whole first portion with the repeated salutation over and over got kind of boring, but I pushed through. I was quite pleased to discover I can still do the wheel, even if I can't hold it very long. Overall I think yoga night will be one of my faves because it's a nice break from the really painful stuff! Hehe...

Also - Daniel's back. *sigh* He's nice to watch.

Day 3: Shoulders & Arms, Ab-Ripper X DONE

Is it really only day 3?? It seems like I have been doing this forever. I feel so close to Tony, now. Hehe...

Seriously, that guy cracks me up. Every time he says "gorrrrgeous" with that wonky British (??) accent I giggle furiously. He was particularly silly in the shoulders and arms workout. I really liked this one, but I think I need to get some heavier weights. I tried some of the moves with the bands like Daniel... oh, Daniel. So far he is my P90X boyfriend. So dreamy, and did I mention he is wearing a backwards hat the whole time? Yea, he was a good motivator. Anyway, I think I want to pick up some heavier weights for some of these exercises. I also have to figure out what to do for the chair dips because as Julie knows - my dining room chairs are a BIT high. I tried using the ottoman but that didn't work very well.

This time I took some notes so I could remember what I wanted to say. One thing I forgot to mention on the other days was that I get so confused sometimes because I am really used to workouts where the leader mirrors - meaning when she says use your right arm, she uses her left so it is like you are looking at a mirror. Tony doesn't do that. So sometimes I am visually following him and then get all confused when he says, "Ok, now use your left arm" and that was what I was already doing. I will get used to this method in time but right now it's throwing me off a bit. Another note: Dreya totally has pit stubble in this one. That makes me happy. If the ripped, awesome trapeze artist can forget to shave her pits, then she seems just a bit more human and relatable, ya know?

There's a bonus round on this one, and since I had gotten up a bit later than I wanted I decided to skip it, especially since I had the Ab Ripper coming up. Today's a holiday, so I did it in the morning, but I don't think I will skip it normally because I will be doing it on Monday evenings when I have more time.

So, after I finished the shoulders and arms I was happy because although I felt tired and worked, I wasn't super sweaty. YAY! No washing hair today.

Ha. Ha. Ha. The joke was on me.

Ab Ripper X is only 15 minutes long but it is a KILLER. I could only do about half of each set before petering out. I think I said "Are you effing KIDDING me??" about 50 times throughout. I know I will get better at it as the weeks go on, but right now I feel like a loser doing this. Oh, well - just more room for improvement!! ;o)

Day 2: Cardio X DONE

*pant* Oh, hi *gasp* there! I *pant* just finished *gasp* Cardio X so I am a bit exhausted! Hehe... Really, it wasn't that bad but I am sweating like a whore in church. Love it! This one again had a lot of variety which I enjoyed, and combined moves from all the other workouts so I got a taste of everything.

What I did not enjoy was wearing shoes. It hurt SO BAD to do the yoga moves wearing shoes, so I finally took them off and left them off. I know that I'm not supposed to do that but I was in so much pain that all I could focus on was my feet and that was totally distracting me from the moves themselves, so I made an executive decision. I think it was fine.

I am also still not down for all the jumping around, but I did like the wacky jacks. Those I can do just fine! If the ken-po moves were any indication of how that workout is gonna go, however, I know I am in for some trouble with that one because I get so lost during the combinations of kicks and punches! We shall see how it goes.

Now I am off to wash my hair. Ugh. ;o)

Day 1: Core Synergistics DONE

Whew! That was great. I am sweaty and tired but also energized, which is exactly what I look for in a workout. As goobery as the guy is I like him. He's really close to the edge of obnoxious but also seems genuinely pumped which I like. I love Pam, the "modification" girl, because she is adorable and smiley and makes me feel like I can do it. I like watching Dreya the trapeze artist's amazing control and strength, and I just like the guy in the back cuz... well, damn. A hot body is always motivating to watch! LOL!

The only parts I didn't enjoy were all those damn push-ups! I know I will get over that someday but I doubt it will be any time soon. I just don't have the push-up gene or something. It may have something to do with my giant chest - that's a LOT of weight up there to push! And speaking of the massive mams, I definitely need a new sports bra. The jumping around was painful in parts. Also, I am not pleased to realize I am going to have to wash my hair every day for the next 3 months. I may have to cut it shorter again because washing/styling long hair every day suuuuucks.

All in all I feel very optimstic but also know that it's going to get harder before it gets easier. I'm ready. BRING IT!!! ;o)

OH, and my starting weight was 163.8. I GUARANTEE that will be down by next Saturday, especially since I ate nachos last night. Hehehehe...

Before Pics, Measurements, and More Humilation

Tonight has been a great night! They let us go home a couple hours early for the holiday weekend so I was doing the fit test by 3:30. B was annoying as expected - trying to tell me how to do things differently than the guide I had printed out instructed me, watching People's Court instead of paying attention to my times, etc. Finally got through everything, though, with the following results.

• Resting heart rate: 66
• Pull-ups: I don't have a pull-up bar and will be using resistance bands for my workouts as demonstrated by this guy, so I didn't do this test but I did try out the bands and they worked great.
• Vertical leap: 7 [recommended minimum: 3]
• Push-ups: 15 [recommended minimum: 15 and I hate hate hate push-ups so I pretty much quit there]
• Toe touch: +3 [recommended minimum: -6]
• Wall squat: 1:17 [recommended minimum: 1 minute]
• Bicep Curls: 32 with 5 lb weights [recommended minimum: 10 with 8 lb weights]
• In and Outs: 34 [recommended minimum: 25]

So, I passed just fine and should be good to go with the workout. I really hope to see improvement in all areas by the end of the 90 days.

I also took my measurements:

• Waist - 32.5
• Hips - 38.5
• Right bicep - 12.5
• Left bicep - 12.5
• Right thigh - 21
• Left thigh - 21.5
• Bust - 40

I will weigh myself in the morning before I work out for my official starting point.

Ok, I have put it off long enough. I said I would post my before pictures, so I will. It's terribly embarrassing, so I think I will post an even more disgusting, embarrassing picture first so that my other pics look impressive by comparison! LOL!

Here's where I was about 4.5 years ago:

Horrifying, right?? Now check out these comparatively awesome pics, which will be my starting point for my P90X journey:







Now I better get to bed so I can get up bright and early for some Core Synergistics! Woohoo! Wish me luck.

Bringin It

Thanks to Julie I am going to start the P90X workout this Saturday and I decided to make a blog to track my progress. This is a 90 day commitment and although I have the worst follow through of anyone on earth, I really hope to stick to this. At first I will try to write every day to give my impressions of the workouts and then at least once a week to keep it updated. Mostly I want to be held accountable somewhere, so here it is.

In case some rando reads this and doesn't know my fitness background I will lay it out for you here. About three and a half years ago I weighed 230 lbs and was a lazy ass lump. My exercise consisted of yoga once a week and taking walks sometimes. One day some people in my office decided to organize a "health challenge" so I joined up and lost 40 pounds right off the bat. I started doing a whole bunch of different workout dvds, mostly pilates based ones by Ellen Barret. I lost about 45 more pounds over the course of the next couple of years. By last summer I was super into working out, was 10 pounds away from my ultimate goal, and felt great.

For some reason, in pretty much every aspect of my life, whenever I get that close to a goal I begin to slack off or backslide. Diet and exercise seem to follow that same pattern. Since then I have slowly gained back about 15 pounds, and although I have continued to work out pretty regularly it has not been to the extent I was doing it back then. So, I really want to whip myself into real shape and finally reach my goal. I think this might be a way to do that.

Tomorrow I will be doing the fit test. I am getting kind of excited about that for some reason. I think it's because I like seeing actual, quantifiable results in the form of numbers and achievements. Three months isn't that long. I can do this!

I will post my before pics and fit test results tomorrow. Public embarrassment should be a good motivator!